I'm laying in my hotel bed after being a groomsmen in my best friend's wedding. I didn't bring a plus one. So many of my friends were there. We dressed up and figured out our suspenders. I redid my tie about 17 times because I'm particular about its size and length. We awkwardly strode through … Continue reading An Unremarkable Dance
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I’m Sorry I Never Knew You
My mother burst into my room with hyperventilating tears "Madeline" Was all I could make out. I took the phone from her "She passed away last night" My relative explained. My cousin has outlived her daughter. And that's exactly what she looked like at the funeral A reality that should not be. She just turned … Continue reading I’m Sorry I Never Knew You
Perhaps I Needn’t Be Afraid?
I've been thinking a lot about fear, recently. It's almost always lurking somewhere in the backstage shadows of my mind, waiting to pop out once a show is finished. It motivates me to be and to do. Sometimes its healthy, most of the time its not. But always needed, strangely. I recently had a nightmare. … Continue reading Perhaps I Needn’t Be Afraid?
Best friends (edit: were)
We could sit in silence for hours And still have a conversation Your presence Is welcomed company It's comfort. I love sitting back with you Drinking whiskey or coffee While regaling in our old stories Our archives And remembering old friends. Our souls look at one another As kin would. I know no other face … Continue reading Best friends (edit: were)
Genesis
Hello friend, I'm Steve. This is my humble blog tucked away in some cobweb and dust-bunny littered corner of the internet. However you got here, I'm glad you did. I hope you hear something you like. At first, I started this blog as a shout into the void, hoping someone might hear my scream. I'm … Continue reading Genesis
I Decided to Feel
I've numbed myself for fear of the shame of not living up to my own standards dragging me down into a pit of stagnation. But today I decided to feel. And it was beautiful. My heart flooded with reminiscent joy Long forgotten memories sparked back to life as I gazed at their place of birth. … Continue reading I Decided to Feel
I Actually Hate Being Alone
It's never been something I've said out loud Because I don't want to give you the impression that I need you But I do. I don't want to be left with the chaos inside Please just distract me from it with the joy of community Let's do something crazy or make a memory Something I … Continue reading I Actually Hate Being Alone
Clowning
Sometimes this is the only place where I feel safe. Sometimes this is the only place where I can speak my mind and say what I really think. Because I don't think other people will get it. And if I try to explain it It falls on deaf ears. Because all I am to them … Continue reading Clowning
Rivers and Roads
"A year from now we'll all be gone All our friends will move away And they're going to better places But our friends will be gone away" I see the world through a lens of connections and relationships. Circumstance may bring two people together, but it's up to them to decide what to do with … Continue reading Rivers and Roads
Dazed
A blank stare rushes over my eyes I focus on your mouth Everything else blurred out "Break up" The world stops And fades to grey I can only picture your mouth repeating those words "Break up" "Break up" Each time it becomes more and more real My instantly crippled spirit can only muster the reply … Continue reading Dazed
The Making of... 